Indecisive

Say hello to Kreature.

In case you missed it, I've nicknamed the baby "Kreature". It's my play on "Kreacher" from Harry Potter.

Yeah, yeah, Kreacher is kind of a homely little shit in Harry Potter, but I'm only 18 weeks pregnant. That means my baby is a homely little shit, too.

Anyways, I saw my OBGYN for this first time yesterday, and god damn it's nice to deal with a doctor who addresses your concerns and acknowledges what you say.

I let him know about my back pain and he immediately offered a doctor's note for physio so my health insurance would cover it. I am hopeful that my appointment on Friday for physio will leave me feeling better, or at the very least, less like I want to kill people.

Ah, who am I kidding, those feelings were in place long before I became pregnant.

He did write on my chart that I weigh 170 lbs, though, which is off by 10 lbs. That was unsettling based purely on the fact that I've never weighed 170 lbs before and I do not currently weigh 170 lbs. Don't give me a heart attack, dude. I hear that's bad for my health and Kreature's.

I'm now in the process of trying to pick out a crib. Did you know that picking out a crib is probably the hardest decision I've ever made? Aside from consciously deciding each day to not kill my husband?

It's hard work.

I've asked for opinions from multiple people and they all differ (of course). I think my sister wants to punch me in the head, because I keep sending her texts asking, "But what about this one?" I'd apologize, but seriously, I don't generally say sorry. I'll make it up to her with extra baby time (AKA that's when I'll shower and shave the leg hair that I'm sure will be braid-able at that point).

I think picking out a crib is actually harder than deciding to  have a kid. Seriously, the conversation went like this:

"We should have a kid."
"Seriously?"
"Yes."
"Okay."

So, for all of you that were thinking that Kreature was an accident (which is understandable, as I repeated over and over every time I was asked that I was never having kids), as you can see, we had an intense and thorough discussion about it before we jumped into anything too crazy.

If only I could go about choosing a crib the same way.